“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore, I will boast all more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
“People feel like they have to ‘have it all together’.
Where I find strength in my own life is being very open and honest about my struggles, being transparent. Jesus said “come as you are” but He doesn’t want us to stay as we are. Through that transparency and honesty even though I’m still weak, I still struggle. The more I give voice to the struggles the power of those struggles get smaller. When you expose them they don’t have as much power.
Living the life of freedom is being open and honest and nothing in the dark can stand when there’s light shining on it. It’s no longer dark.“ – Natalie Grant
Yes! This is so true! The more open and honest I have been about my struggles that’s where the healing started to take place.
As I was driving home late last Saturday night (dropping Pat off) at the airport I was a little weary of driving home so late and not exactly know where I was going but I was grateful for my GPS on my phone to tell me where to go! Praise God! I had on the Christian radio station and I was really praising God for all His goodness and for taking care of us. I was reminded that 2 years ago when I was in such a different place.
Going to a wedding an hour away then taking Pat to the airport to catch his international flight ✈️ while leaving my “babies” (at the time) behind with their grandfather would have been “too much” for me. I would have had high anxiety about all of this and would not have been able to sleep for days leading up to the event. I also would have been an absolute mess while he was gone for the week. It may sound silly but it’s the truth. Pat had to start traveling frequently when Isabelle was 2 weeks old. I had an incredibly hard time with the transition because the girls were so little and we were just getting used to having 2 little ones under 2 years old. I wasn’t prepared for the transition at all, but are we ever prepared?!! It wasn’t supposed to be so much travel and it kept happening over and over again. I was praying so hard and asking God to take my pain away. All I wanted to do was sleep normally and to function like I had once was able to function but I was really going through a hard time.
My anxiety was at an all-time high. It made normal everyday functioning extremely difficult. He broke my heart 💔 for hurting people all around me and took the blinders off my own eyes. I’m thankful for the people God placed in my life at that time to help, provide, pray and encourage me. When the travel first began I really felt in my heart God saying, “When you’re ok with this, the travel will be over”. I remember crying and thinking, I don’t ever see myself being “ok” with this so the travel seemed like it would be endless.
I also remember as time went on and God started reveal to me wounds that needed to be healed from my past and that He would use me to help other women. I remember crying at the thought of this, knowing my pain wasn’t a waste, that He could use my pain to help and heal other women. In my darkest times, I clung to Him, I cried out to Him, I trusted in Him He had a plan and a purpose for my life. ❤️
So, as I was driving home last Saturday night, I felt an overwhelming peace and healing come over me. 🙏 I knew Pat was going to be gone for a week and I was ok with that. I wasn’t anxious or upset at all. God is good! He is real and He loves you so much!
Know, that you are not alone!! Whatever you are facing is not too big for a loving, caring God. ❤️
If you ever need someone to talk with or pray, please know I am here. ❤️
Love & Blessings,
(Pat is now home safe